poetry & lyrics

Only Waiting
© 2013 by Jessica Valentine

Are you my cowboy, I think you are
The way you lift your chin up and play your guitar
The way you sing your lyrics
From dreams afar

I’ve got a secret bigger than my brain
It’s that I remember that feeling
Things could have stayed the same
That hasn’t changed

I wonder how my life would have turned out
If I was brave enough to stay
If I hadn’t ran out on you
If I would have heard you play

That song that I said I didn’t like
When that comment lifted your brow
I knew nothing about you
Or how you’d turn me down

I knew I’d never see you again
And I don’t mind
Because I know how a cowboy’s life could end
And that is fine

But I am strong
And I know my way
I know in the end we will meet
Not now, but one day

And time will stand still
Time will stand still

So as for you my cowboy
I will not stand defeat
I will hold back
In my retreat

Only waiting
Only waiting

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Waiting by J. Valentine
©2013 by Jessica Valentine

I know you live from a suitcase
I know you’re out on the road
I know you may be feeling lonely
When you’re out there on your own

You may be feeling guarded
You may be feeling shamed
But know that when I see you
You have always stayed the same

I don’t need security
I don’t need a home
I need to know that you’re with me
So that I don’t feel alone

When the sun goes down
And you rest your head
When you are weary or feeling blue
Just know like a drum
My heart still beats for you

So, next time you push me away
Forgive me for the first time I strayed
Scared and guarded and drunk
I may have been, if you chased me
I would have waited